Here I am with a whole bunch of wonderful blog ideas, all ready to write them out and share them with ‘the world’, only tonight, I can’t.
I’ve had the most horrible two weeks and it seems as the time has gone on it’s only gotten worse and more stressful. I’ve got so much on my plate it’s ridiculous and I’ve started to stop enjoying the things that usually bring me the most joy (started to stop. lol). I walked into the kitchen tonight in tears and my mum comes up and immediately asks me if the boy-person and I broke up. Nice try on the telepathy mum, but no. That wasn’t quite it. For more insight read my post on why auditions are the worst. What’s worse is that I know I’m giving good auditions and performing well, I’m just not having much luck in the actual casting bit. Unfortunate but it’s the name of the game and even though I may say it, I’m not really willing to give up. Not yet anyway. Though I wont lie, my confidence is a little bit shattered…A lot? a lottle…which is somewhere between the two.
I was also rather a sour-puss at cheer on Sunday even, which was due to news I’d received earlier in the day, but the mere fact that not even cheer could lighten my mood was, well, shit. I do apologise to my squad, I’m not much fun when I’m like that. I’ll be better by Wednesday.
I did manage to submit my penultimate assignment for my Masters degree tonight, though and my last one is due Thursday. It’s unlikely I’ll be able to post again until after that’s all written and handed in, especially considering that for the next two nights I will be spending most of my time at cheer. But I will be looking to get back into posting daily come the end of my university study. I cannot believe how excited I am…well, I’m not showing it right now. But my mind is throwing a party in the background somewhere.
Anyway, sorry for the whinge today. I don’t really have the capacity to write anything substantial at the moment. Expect me to be back on track with the blogging next week.
I can’t even find a good picture for this blog. And it’s only Monday. I hate this week already.
